Monday, August 27, 2012

A life of solitude on the web. It's like camping out with no one around. (Until someone finds me. Like an explorer, lost and alone, chopping their way through the undergrowth when suddenly ....)

So for the 31 plays in 31 days I thought I'd really just go ahead and shove a splinter under my fingernail. I did this by trying to write a play in iambic pentameter. Fool that I am. I did it. Sort of. But took hours. Lots more time than I should have wasted. But, in secret, I wish to write a one-act play in iambic pentameter. Well, I did until I wrote this short play. Hm. Here it is:

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If I Were To Repeat Myself                                                                         by Earl T. Roske

(Lights up on Acacius, a dying gunslinger. He is alone)

                                                                        ACACIUS
                                                                        (Death enters halfway through sonnet and stops to listen.)
My life has gone down a path I'd not sought
Bushes of thorns I've often forced my way
Through at risk of penalties I have wrought
Reluctant yet knowing I'd see this day

Yet as the chill begins to creep from skin
To bone and the light dims on this bright day
If there had been another way to spin
The tale I've lived to turn a different way

Then perhaps my hands would be free from stain
Of powder and blood and the grime of death
I would not then be here my heart in pain
For all the hurt I carry on my breast

What I would do if life I could repeat
Things so different my ending would be sweet.

                                                                        DEATH
The choices you've made you bear to the end
Wishing and dreaming will change not a thing

                                                                        ACACIUS
I see that death has come to make amend
For making a puppet of my sad being
Keep your apology for someone more worthy

                                                                        DEATH
There's no apology from me made to you
You made all your choices made them clearly
So I have come to collect what is due

                                                                        ACACIUS
I have worked like the scythe there in your hand
Slicing a path marked with tears stained with blood
An unwitting tool reaping 'cross the land
Weeds of tombstones grow now where once men stood

                                                                        DEATH
If you thought your actions would earn reward
Truly little you know of who you are
Inside you are things you have yet explored

                                                                        ACACIUS
Explored I have done and picked at each scar
This is not the man I'd chosen to be

                                                                        DEATH
Yet here you are with your last sun setting
You're choices were yours they don't rest with me
I am not your fate, I am what's waiting
Within you lays choice the fork of each path
That which is in you guides your direction
It is the pen which scribes your last paragraph
I am the result of all people's action
Concern yourself not where blame is to rest

                                                                        ACACIUS
But my life is wasted, what might have been
Torments my last like some unwanted guest

                                                                        DEATH
You would have chose different if you'd foreseen

                                                                        ACACIUS
I would have I know it that I am sure
Violence is no life it brings only pain
Better to be those who strive and endure

                                                                        DEATH
But those ways were not the ways that you chose

                                                                        ACACIUS
They were not. I wish that things were different

                                                                        DEATH
And you would not be you if you'd become those

                                                                        ACACIUS
I'd be living if my life that way went.

                                                                        DEATH
Again, we speak of what is and what isn't
A past that's not and a present that is
This is the path the forks down which you went
Regret is just an anti-catharsis
Look upon your life as an adventure
Each human constructs their own direction
And at the end must find their own closure
Look and find a point of celebration
Embrace the bright embrace that which shines

                                                                        ACACIUS
Not all that I have done burns ugly black
That there has been some light and good at times
Perhaps my regret can be soothed and slacked
I die alone with no one to see me on
To remember my name and what I've done

                                                                        DEATH
I am here as my duty does beckon
In your last moment you are not alone
The faces of those you've treasured the most
Are there in your skull to ease the passing
Let them serve to you as if like a host

                                                                        ACACIUS
I die then knowing nothing is lasting
                                                                        (Dies)

                                                                        DEATH
All men are nothing but a blink to time
A blink and the world you knew is quick gone
The dreams and the hopes pass with each chime
All fades away, the good and the wrong

Through the passage of time remains only I
For Death you all learn is the true constant
From the first until the end I'll stand by
For all through all time a passing I grant

I remember each that passes my way
Your stories I know and never forget
Till the last one has past, then on that day
I believe I'll know how it is to regret

For I'll be the last as death becomes death
None will stand beside me for my last breath

                                                                        (Exits)

                                                                        (Lights down)

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